i just want attention (and you)

on neediness, craving, and the disgusting awareness of wanting to be seen by someone

Mar 01, 2025

1. more men need to write about desire

in a non-carnal way! human desire (and overthinking it) is universal but damn is it rare to read a man’s1 perspective on those tender, small (smol), teetering-on-embarassing, inner-giggly thoughts. i remember writing four (!) pages in my diary after my first kiss in high-school and i don’t remember much except using the word “sloppy” a lot.

therefore. i couldn’t stop thinking about this piece for a while. fav excerpt below aaand hook:

I want to be in love, I think. It’s all the pent-up passion. Pent-up passion sounds like a euphemism for wanting someone to fuck, and it must be. I guess you can’t know until afterwards. I think it’s a euphemism for wanting someone to kiss.

platonic husband

how hard should you kiss a woman?

I figure the first word ever written was used to communicate a want. Or a need. Which are the same thing, just separated by enough time to turn the writer desperate…

7 months ago · 6521 likes · 153 comments · azeez

2. pick me consume me

there is a time and place for having self respect. i know that. you know that. but HYPOTHETICALLY, if you had to choose me would you??? i’m chill otherwise.

this piece felt like someone stole my inner monologue from the deep recesses of my feminist-in-shame. and exposed the neediness. the audacity.

All I want in life is to be loved and it seems programmed in me—not by nature nor nurture but some inexplicable force only I am burdened with—that I either deny this truth or settle for less. It’s a fucking illness, it’s a burden, and it’s all I am.

my vape is dying

A Sixth Finger

If there were a mandated monogamy law—if, tomorrow, it became illegal to be single and unwed: Would you choose me? This is a hypothetical of course and I don’t really care either way, it’s just like. Well. Well, you have to choose someone don’t you? In this hypothetical world. If you say me I’m going to assume that means you want to marry me one day. If…

5 months ago · 362 likes · 29 comments · emma girl

3. it’s sunday

4. fulfilling needs, seeking attention, discarding shame

this one’s a heavy-hitter. nearly every woman friend i’ve spoken to has at some point shared hesitation about whether they were seeking attention or expecting a reasonable amount of consideration from their partner. only hindsight told me it was the latter2.

I know this cycle intimately (the thread of irony through this whole relationship is that I’ve been so thoroughly therapized that I’m actually perfectly aware of how fucked up we are, yet I still don’t have the self-respect to get out) and I know the only thing to do now is to grieve what he can’t give.